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Monday, 9 January 2006
Thoughts...
Mood:
 not sure
Now Playing: In Too Deep - Sum 41
Funny...I really need to pay attention to what songs I listen to....especially these days. Each one makes me think of Her...I'm listening to music to fog my mind and to calm down so I can sleep but the choice of music is not helping as it is directing my thoughts towards Her.
Need to focus my thoughts...but my thoughts are being focused....onto Her.
For those of you who are curious, let me give you a rundown on the situation. I work for a certain major wireless provider in there customer care. One of my co-workers I have grown to think of Her more and more and spent the large portion of last week(read: all of it) working up the courage to ask Her out as I like Her quite a bit. Asked Her out on Saturday and She said she'd think about...went into work tonight since I could not sit still nor focus here at home and checked with Her to see if She was up to anything aftewards, but She had plans...not a big deal, I told Her, we can set something up for next weekend. Sounds simple enough right? Well, toss in the fact that I got limited(read: none) experience in the opposite sex and that this is the first time asking a woman out for a date.
Alot of my thoughts have gone towards Her these past weeks. At first I denied the thoughts, but they kept coming and I spent a night fighting with myself getting over the fear of what may happen; the fear of a repeat of 5 years ago. 5 years ago I made a mistake and will not make that same one again.
One thing I have been repeating to myself time and time again this past few hours has been I amde the right choice. I took a chance and stepped up and asked Her out and She did not shoot me down. She didn't say yes either, but She did say she'd think about it...I truly can not wait until next weekend, just me and Her.
Now, before you get any thoughts regarding me and Her in bed....hate to pop your bubble, but no...I want to get with her to get to know Her, not to get in Her pants. I wanna know Her mind and Her thoughts before I even consider trying to get in Her bed. I don't even want to think of Her in that way, do not want to tarnish my view of Her thinking of Her in that way. She is perfect in every which way that I've seen of Her so far. Not one thing I would ever want to change.
I've seen a few of Her emotions at work...joy, sadness, frustration, anger...seeing those made me feel closer to Her than anything else might have done.
This may be the first of many blogs with you fine folks here...if any are interested in seeing my other blogs I got elsewhere, hit me up and I'll supply the info to ya.
Peace!!
Posted by grendel-37
at 5:26 AM CST
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